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[candor1]

"Me, too."

Though they never would.

…unless…

No. He couldn't afford to even begin to think like that. Can't take anyone with you. If she'd even—

No.

The server chose that moment to come back, when Cassian now felt too sick to eat. He ordered anyway (no choice) and considered what next.

"We can make a start," he said. "What's something you think I should know about you? Or something you want to know about me?"

[shiningstardust]

Now, Jyn would never have the opportunity to make an escape. Now, she really was well and truly stuck. If she wasn't at her post, under the watchful gazes of those who expected to work and keep the Empire's machine running smoothly, she would have no privacy at home, either.

Even if Joreth hadn't been recruited specifically to keep eyes on her, Jyn couldn't put it past Krennic to corner him somewhere and convince him to do it. She had no one to trust, nowhere to run.

And she suddenly felt sick to her stomach. Although, when the server returned, she managed to choose one of the Alderaanian specials, despite no longer having an appetite. She'd just have to go through the motions. She was good at that.

"I hardly know where to begin", she started, shrugging. "I've ... always wanted a pet of my own. Maybe a tooka cat."

She watched him expectantly, waiting.

"Your turn."

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His smile at the cat was spontaneous. "We could probably arrange that…?"

His turn. Right. …Oh, why this one… ah well. Honesty. "I don't remember my mother. For years, I didn't know who she was. My father told me nothing. At some point I even started to wonder if he was really my father or had kidnapped me."

[shiningstardust]

Her smile was a bit more hesitant. She was far more used to being denied such superfluous desires, informed that it was a waste of time to focus on those sorts of distractions when there were far better uses of her time. "... Yeah?"

Jyn hadn't expected Joreth's offering to pull at her heartstrings so thoroughly. He couldn't know, could he, that she had lost her mother at a young age, too, that it still hurt to think about her and barely remember the sound of her voice or what her smile looked like, how it felt to be held in her arms.

"I'm sorry. And you never found out anything otherwise - ?"

[candor1]

"I found out. After my father died too."

Going into details would either require lies or stray into cover-threatening territory, so he dropped it. Instead, he folded his hands on the table and signaled the change of tone with another smile. "Your turn. What would you name a tooka cat and why?"

[shiningstardust]

Jyn had so many follow-up questions, but she was observant enough to know when to drop them and to concentrate on other things entirely. Still, she felt that maybe, he could understand her, at least a little.

"Oh, that's impossible to determine without meeting them and getting to know their disposition first. I would hate to name it Sunny if it was actually very grumpy. Although I've never known a grumpy took cat before, have you?"

[candor1]

He wished he could tell her about Lothal and the loth-cats. But anything that could be easily looked up was a no-go.

Ah, but he could borrow, from the Organas of Alderaan— "A friend of mine had an aunt with four tooka cats. My friend was allowed to name one of them. Their names were Fluffy, Taffy, Muffy, and AT-AV*."



[*All-Terrain Attack Vehicle
a Princess Leia story from the EU, by Barbara Hambley]

[shiningstardust]

Jyn's eyebrows shot up in surprise, and soon after, she laughed - a long, loud, pleased noise , one that she hadn't offered anyone in ...

Well. As long as she could remember.

"Don't tell me, AT-AV was the cuddliest one of all? To be honest, I think I prefer that name to the others. Did you have pets as a child? Do you have siblings?"

[candor1]

That was a wonderful sound. He wanted to make her make it again.

"I never met them," he admitted, "but my friend loved Avie very much."

For pets or siblings: "No, neither."

…this was a bad idea… skirting the edges… but… "I had a droid. A KX security model. …I was a lonely kid." (Both true facts if actually unrelated. But let it evoke the image of a child befriending an enforcer.)

[shiningstardust]

"Good. That's good", she replied, nodding gently. "I'm sure they loved your friend, too."

Jyn had a difficult time picturing little Joreth with a security droid for a friend. That seemed exceptionally sad to her, but then, she hadn't grown up with siblings, either. And after a while, she wouldn't even say that she had many friends - real, true ones, in any case.

Just herself and her imagination.

"I know what that's like, being lonely. What happened with your droid?"

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"He's out there, somewhere."

(In their hidden shuttle, embedded in the city. Shhh.)

"Your best friend, growing up?"

[shiningstardust]

Just vague enough to intrigue her all the more. But also just vague enough to suggest that she not ask any more about his droid-turned-friend.

"My Papa. But ... he's stationed elsewhere, so I haven't seen him in quite some time. We correspond sometimes, but ... "

It wasn't enough. She missed him. And she didn't want to think about it.

"What did you want to be when you grew up?"

[candor1]

On the one hand: how wonderful, that she'd had that kind of relationship with a parent. On the other hand… also sounded terribly lonely.

What had he wanted to be… there was no honest answer to that. He'd been a soldier. He didn't want things for himself. And he hadn't expected to grow up.

Sward's answer, though, was easy. "An admiral of my own ship." Boring answer, anyway. "What kind of holos do you like?"

[shiningstardust]

For most of what little time she had been granted with her father, he had been busy working or grieving the loss of her mother. So it hadn't been as wonderful as she might have made it sound.

Still, she missed him deeply.

"Ah - ", she answered, shrugging. "You're a career man, then." That wasn't much of a surprise to hear - he wouldn't have married her if it hadn't been a chance for advancement. "I ... wasn't allowed to watch very many of them when I was little, so ... I like them all. Fantasy adventures, whatever is easiest to get lost in."

[candor1]

Wasn't allowed…? He opened his mouth to follow up, but that was when their meals arrived.

Cassian was relieved to find he could eat, now, without much forcing. Though he was far more interested in continuing the… game, or whatever it was, with Jyn. He waited, though, 'til the server was safely gone. "What did you want to be when you grew up?"

[shiningstardust]

Wasn't allowed. Lonely, sheltered, and also made to spend most of her time studying, encouraged to nurture what was sure to be an exceptional intellect, inherited from her parents - both of them.

Jyn wasn't starving, for sure, but when her plate was set in front of her, she found that her stomach growled softly nonetheless. At least she could try to enjoy her food without forcing herself to do so.

"I don't know if I wanted to be any one thing in particular, but I - ", here she paused, trying to gauge him carefully, how he might react to hearing the truth. "I suppose what I dreamed about the most was sneaking onto some ship heading anywhere and just ... traveling."

She shrugged, huffed out a breath, and focused on her food. "Do you have any hobbies?"

[candor1]

His stomach fell away and heart rose up again. No. Don't even think about it. Not now, not ever.

Can't take anyone with you.

…At least, don't think about it right now.

But…

Cassian looked at her thoughtfully. "You know… we're allowed a honeymoon. I hadn't thought about it, but… If you could go anywhere…?"

[shiningstardust]

It was a tempting offer - and Jyn didn't know yet if Joreth was the type of man who didn't deserve a runaway wife, but if she had the chance -

If there was even a hint of opportunity ...

She might disappear and never even think about returning.

If there was a whisper of breathlessness in her voice, Jyn brought no attention to it. "I don't know - I hear Naboo has unparalleled beauty. Where would you want to go?"

[candor1]

Yavin 4.

"Naboo would work for me," he answered. "I've never been there."

[shiningstardust]

Jyn was already daydreaming about jumping ship and making a run for it. It would never come to pass, of course, not with so many eyes on her, courtesy of the Director, but it made for a nice dream, regardless.

At least until she woke and realized just how trapped she still was.

"Where would you go, if you could?"

[candor1]

Yavin 4
Fest
Alderaan
Kashyyyk
Charissia
Pakrik Minor

"I really don't know," he said. "I guess I" [Sward] "would like, someday, to find somewhere new."

He looked into her eyes again, with the same intensity of wanting her to see he meant it. "I'm serious about Naboo, if you are. Shall we talk about it again after we've had a chance to—" (sleep on it) "—think about it?"

[shiningstardust]

Somewhere new.

It was really all that Jyn wanted, too. Unfortunately, she was of the belief that no matter where she went, she would never truly be out of the Empire's reach.

After a moment - when she remembered how to - Jyn nodded her agreement. "I would like that, thank you. Maybe my uncle will be kind and allow me the time."

[candor1]

He frowned. "Do you still answer to him? Even after…" he indicated themselves with his hand that had a ring on it.

[shiningstardust]

Jyn tried not to show her disdain for the man that had practically raised her (kept her captive) but there was no helping the bitterness that colored her tone. "Well. I am his protege, after all."

[candor1]

Cassian's frown morphed into one raised eyebrow. "Okay… but in terms of legality and societal expectation…" How could he put this in a way he found tolerable? "…I'm pretty sure you can now use me as an excuse to not comply to all his wishes."