[He loses some of the control over his breathing. He bowed his head to hers, forehead to breastbone, feeling her encompass him with her heart and warmth and breath, words and thoughts and love.
And allows himself to receive it.
…He finishes openly sobbing
(the first time since he was…
…four
even Kay has seen him catatonic and convulsing and screaming and silently crying but never gasping in grief like that
making Jyn the only person alive to hear him make such sounds)
and turns his head, resting his cheek against her chest, to wipe his eyes with the heel of his palm.]
Sorry…
[Not because he thinks she minds or will think less of him or doesn't understand. He knows better than all of those. There are just only so many ways to exit such a moment.
And it is a slightly awkward—if not actually psychologically unusual—way to come down from… though they are in an elevator so maybe worrying about awkwardness is moot…
One more time, he turns his face to press a kiss between her breasts, to her drumming heart.
…Knows he's feeling better because he has to suddenly suppress a mental image of Kay amazedly criticizing him for spilling so many fluids in so little space.]
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Date: 2017-06-15 03:35 am (UTC)And allows himself to receive it.
…He finishes openly sobbing
(the first time since he was…
…four
even Kay has seen him catatonic and convulsing and screaming and silently crying but never gasping in grief like that
making Jyn the only person alive to hear him make such sounds)
and turns his head, resting his cheek against her chest, to wipe his eyes with the heel of his palm.]
Sorry…
[Not because he thinks she minds or will think less of him or doesn't understand. He knows better than all of those. There are just only so many ways to exit such a moment.
And it is a slightly awkward—if not actually psychologically unusual—way to come down from… though they are in an elevator so maybe worrying about awkwardness is moot…
One more time, he turns his face to press a kiss between her breasts, to her drumming heart.
…Knows he's feeling better because he has to suddenly suppress a mental image of Kay amazedly criticizing him for spilling so many fluids in so little space.]