Request an assignment left a bitter taste in Jyn's mouth. Thing was - while she had stayed because it had been the right thing to do, the bigger reason was because Cassian had been there, had wanted her to, even though he had never come out and said as much.
For once in her life, Jyn didn't want to have to report to anyone, feel beholden to anyone. She wanted to be free. But Cassian had been doing his job for so long that he wouldn't really know what to do with himself without rules and regulations and orders.
And Jyn would have to learn how to compromise if she wanted to stay with Cassian.
He was right, though. Some things may not change quickly or at all. It was a brand new galaxy, a brand new era, and no one could begin to know what was going to happen.
She took a deep breath, tried to smile, probably failed at her attempt to appear as steady as she was trying to portray herself to be. Compromise flew right out the window when what she finally offered in response was -
"I want to take you and run away and never look back."
Immediately, Jyn sighed in frustration, dropped her gaze and shook her head slightly. Okay. Wrong thing to say. But she could still pull it back around, make herself less unreasonable in her wants. She'd had more time to come to terms with the war ending and what that might mean, after all.
Cassian - was still processing.
"But I can do that, I think, if it's what you want to do. Find a way to continue making myself useful."
Okay, that wasn't any better, the bitterness that colored her words just so.
"I don't know what the right decision is - ", Jyn quietly replied, raising her eyes slowly to meet Cassian's again. "I just know that whatever I do, I want it to be with you."
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oop pretty sure i've already said i want it to be with you before. doesn't hurt to reiterate it!
Date: 2020-02-09 06:15 pm (UTC)For once in her life, Jyn didn't want to have to report to anyone, feel beholden to anyone. She wanted to be free. But Cassian had been doing his job for so long that he wouldn't really know what to do with himself without rules and regulations and orders.
And Jyn would have to learn how to compromise if she wanted to stay with Cassian.
He was right, though. Some things may not change quickly or at all. It was a brand new galaxy, a brand new era, and no one could begin to know what was going to happen.
She took a deep breath, tried to smile, probably failed at her attempt to appear as steady as she was trying to portray herself to be. Compromise flew right out the window when what she finally offered in response was -
"I want to take you and run away and never look back."
Immediately, Jyn sighed in frustration, dropped her gaze and shook her head slightly. Okay. Wrong thing to say. But she could still pull it back around, make herself less unreasonable in her wants. She'd had more time to come to terms with the war ending and what that might mean, after all.
Cassian - was still processing.
"But I can do that, I think, if it's what you want to do. Find a way to continue making myself useful."
Okay, that wasn't any better, the bitterness that colored her words just so.
"I don't know what the right decision is - ", Jyn quietly replied, raising her eyes slowly to meet Cassian's again. "I just know that whatever I do, I want it to be with you."