It felt like a punch to the gut, hearing Cassian admit to things that she'd been suspecting for quite some time. He wasn't good or kind to himself, didn't trust himself, wouldn't forgive himself, even though what he'd done had all been in service of a greater cause.
She understood that guilt all too well. But whatever they did wasn't going to work if he put her on some pedestal and only ever orbited around it like a satellite. It wasn't going to work if there wasn't the chance that he could come to terms with some of his actions and decisions, that he could heal from some of his deep wounds.
"It's not your fault", she finally answered, quietly and carefully. "What happened to you. What you've had to do for all these years. And ... what we do from this point on isn't going to work if you continue to blame yourself and hate yourself for what you couldn't help. It isn't - how can we move on if you keep wishing to be dead?"
It wasn't going to work if he was going to look to her to absolve him of his sins - real or imagined. Force knew Jyn had her own to contend with, too.
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Date: 2019-12-21 06:29 am (UTC)She understood that guilt all too well. But whatever they did wasn't going to work if he put her on some pedestal and only ever orbited around it like a satellite. It wasn't going to work if there wasn't the chance that he could come to terms with some of his actions and decisions, that he could heal from some of his deep wounds.
"It's not your fault", she finally answered, quietly and carefully. "What happened to you. What you've had to do for all these years. And ... what we do from this point on isn't going to work if you continue to blame yourself and hate yourself for what you couldn't help. It isn't - how can we move on if you keep wishing to be dead?"
It wasn't going to work if he was going to look to her to absolve him of his sins - real or imagined. Force knew Jyn had her own to contend with, too.