Want had been intrinsically linked with need since Lah'mu and the loss of her parents. But Jyn could clearly recall at least a few particular wants that always set her nerves on edge whenever they once more made themselves known.
I want my Mama! Where is my Papa? - through tears as she ineffectually tried to pummel the man who'd rescued her from her hiding place that cold, rainy day.
I want to kiss you - unspoken but felt in every atom of her body as she helped Cassian into the lift and kept close in order to ensure that he didn't fall. You believed me and thank you and you came back you came back you came back and I wish we had more time swirling around and around in her mind. Oh, how she wanted to show him, but she hadn't.
I want to live. Please, I want to live - as they held each other tight, waiting for that blaze of light from her father's weapon to blast them into nothing. I wish we had more time.
Jyn ducked her head, swallowed hard, took a deep breath and then another. Finally, she was able to move forward, one small step at a time until she was settling next to Cassian on the bed - close, but not too close, not crowding him or invading his space, a silent reminder that he was not alone.
When was the last time you did something because you wanted to …
"I stayed", she murmured, a hoarse edge to her voice. "After Scarif. When everyone thought that I was going to cut and run. And I didn't do it because I felt like like I owed it to anyone or - or … "
She sighed brokenly, shaking her head slowly. "I stayed because I wanted to. Because it was the right thing to do. Because - "
Jyn didn't continue the thought. But she did settle her worn, calloused hand gently against his. She was here now because she wanted to be, because it had been four long years that they had spent most separated and it had been excruciatingly difficult.
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Date: 2019-12-16 08:04 pm (UTC)I want my Mama! Where is my Papa? - through tears as she ineffectually tried to pummel the man who'd rescued her from her hiding place that cold, rainy day.
I want to kiss you - unspoken but felt in every atom of her body as she helped Cassian into the lift and kept close in order to ensure that he didn't fall. You believed me and thank you and you came back you came back you came back and I wish we had more time swirling around and around in her mind. Oh, how she wanted to show him, but she hadn't.
I want to live. Please, I want to live - as they held each other tight, waiting for that blaze of light from her father's weapon to blast them into nothing. I wish we had more time.
Jyn ducked her head, swallowed hard, took a deep breath and then another. Finally, she was able to move forward, one small step at a time until she was settling next to Cassian on the bed - close, but not too close, not crowding him or invading his space, a silent reminder that he was not alone.
When was the last time you did something because you wanted to …
"I stayed", she murmured, a hoarse edge to her voice. "After Scarif. When everyone thought that I was going to cut and run. And I didn't do it because I felt like like I owed it to anyone or - or … "
She sighed brokenly, shaking her head slowly. "I stayed because I wanted to. Because it was the right thing to do. Because - "
Jyn didn't continue the thought. But she did settle her worn, calloused hand gently against his. She was here now because she wanted to be, because it had been four long years that they had spent most separated and it had been excruciatingly difficult.
She was here now because she wanted -
A chance.