"I nearly didn't," he said, slowly. "I agreed to consider it because… it showed a level of… honor, I guess, from the Admiral, and I wanted to show I recognized that; because it solidified the relationship he wanted with your guardian, because it would be good for my career… but those things are only why I agreed to meet you at all.
"I agreed to go through with it because…"
This was hard. He couldn't be absolutely certain he wasn't just saying it to distract her. …Even though it was what was ultimately true… but he had a harder time trusting himself when he actually wanted…
"…because when I saw you," he said, not hiding his difficulty, "I hated the idea of you being married off." At all? "To anyone else."
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Date: 2019-06-13 04:14 am (UTC)"I nearly didn't," he said, slowly. "I agreed to consider it because… it showed a level of… honor, I guess, from the Admiral, and I wanted to show I recognized that; because it solidified the relationship he wanted with your guardian, because it would be good for my career… but those things are only why I agreed to meet you at all.
"I agreed to go through with it because…"
This was hard. He couldn't be absolutely certain he wasn't just saying it to distract her. …Even though it was what was ultimately true… but he had a harder time trusting himself when he actually wanted…
"…because when I saw you," he said, not hiding his difficulty, "I hated the idea of you being married off." At all? "To anyone else."